Asbestos Stomach Cancer

I asked the below, really good answers that I appreciate. I wrote a note apologising, saying i hadnt been myself, that i missed her as a person and realise i have been out of order. She responded by telling me she doesnt care and she is with some one that understands her. I know that is what i need to know but now i realise it was all bullshit but i cant stop feeling for her. I dont meet people that easy and she was really special, i dont let people in, I am destroyed, any advice is massively appreciated. I have put the below in, there is a lot so dont worry about reading!

I really would like a womans perspective because i know i acted like an idiot and no matter what i was going through i have no excuse

In short I was seeing a girl from work for only 3 1/2 months, i fell for her big time. She seemed to like me a lot too but ended it 2 moths ago. I am in love with this girl im 25 she 21 ( i know!!) i have to see her every day she hates me as we both had major issues and i acted like a complete prick. She wont even look at me unless its to give me the evils. i now think she is with another guy from work, how do i forget her when i see her all the time.

There is loads more below but only read if you want to…cheers

After all this I cant even look at other women, its been two months help!! (sorry for the lenght)?
Help Help Help, messed up no chance of relationship but how do i apoligise sincerely and make peace?
Help with this girl? just to make peace?
I know i have no chance with her now but how do i at least make peace with her?
This may be a little odd, but i posted the below q a while ago. I have tried so hard to forget her to move on find someone else. I am a fairly good looking guy and never had problems with women, but i do not want any other than her. Even when it is there on a plate all i can think is of this woman who i love, but who hates me and desrvedly so. I know nothing can happen with her now, but how can i make peace with her so at least she maybe in my life as a friend. i think so much of her jot just like that but as a person.Is this impossible?

I have mess up big time with this girl?
I started seeing a girl in sep last year. I really liked her and she seemed to realy like me. all was good she would always make effort with me. Then from mid nov to early dec she had 3 deaths to deal with . I took a step back and said im there if needed, we swere still in contact. I gave her a lift to work every day from mid nov to just before xmas(we work at the same place) so it was ok i new she liked me. Then early dec i was very ill, but didnt want to put anything on her she had enouhg to deal with. My doc said it was a stomach ulcer. I could deal with that on my own i thought. just before xmas my doc said i had best go for cancer screening to be sure as i wasnt improving. I had never been so worried, all i wanted to ddo was talk to her but couldnt tell her. Then day after xmas i lost it i had to talk so i hassled her she just refused. after a week or so she still wouldnt talk, but ome day i asked if i could call she said yeah so i did..she didnt answer. then she texts saying her dad tried to end his life after xmas thats why she needed time but and that she still did and she dont want to be with me. i felt terrible and selfish…but was then told i had an abnormal growth that would need a biopsy and i completly lost it and again hassled her. she told me she now couldnt even be friends and all i hd done is prove that we wouldnt work even after she told me what she was dealing with…i no wht she means but i had load to deal with to. she did really like me and i know i put her off..so i told her what i have been going through. she didnt answer…only to say she doesnt like me at all and cant be friends with me…but i know i only acted like thaat becuse of what i had on . what do i do??

Product Description
A world-acclaimed poet presents two new age novels back to back: “Asbestos: A Book for Lepers” and “How to Make Love to a Foot”. Both novellas are parodies of the gestalt psychology fad of the sixties and the pop culture of the era. This is a wonderfully experimental text…. More >>

Zapped: Two Novellas : How to Make Love to a Foot/Asbestos : A Book for Lepers

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